dA love for everyone! #132

                                     

Tell us what defines you as a person.
Oh dear, this is going to be a very difficult question to answer. I am still figuring myself out. Trying to define myself is like a person who has awful near sighted vision, trying to define the exact details of something in the distance. Right now, all I know is that, even though some of my poems can be dark. I am pretty happy, compared to a year or so ago. And when I am not, I’ll write or dance. I think people are like jig saw puzzles. All of our pieces are scattered around when we’re born, and we have to find all of them. I have found very little of them at the moment. So, trying to define myself now would be difficult as hell.


How did you find out about deviantART and why did you join the community?
I found out about Deviant Art back in 6th grade, I am pretty sure. And I wasn’t really writing back then. And I am not very good at drawing. So, I just sort of browsed through all of the amazing art work, and poetry and fangirled over how amazing and talented everyone was. I only started posting things, in an attempt to sort of get better at drawing. The only reason I started writing poetry, and posting it. Was because I wrote a short little poem one night, when I was feeling sort of down. And, I was like, ‘What the heck, why not post it?’ So I did, and then One of my favorite writers on here, commented saying it was pretty alright. And after that, I just started writing and writing.


When and how did you discover your passion for art?
Well, I’ve always really, really loved writing and reading. I am a nerd, and I used to have a best friend back in elementary school. He used to tell me about all of these books. We’d always pretend to be the characters from them on the playground during recess. Books are my best friends, and sometimes it is nice to escape everything that is real. I also really think too much, and writing is a very nice outlet for when you’re feeling sad, or happy or anything like that.



What inspires you the most and when do you think your creativity is at its maximum?
I have writer’s block, all the time. But I always keep a journal and sometimes I’ll think of cool ideas in there. Also, reading is really inspiring. I’ll get lots of ideas after reading for a very long time. Or, listening to music. Like, ‘Twenty One Pilots’ and ‘Sleeping at Last’ are both very, very good to get you thinking. I think I write better when I am sleep deprived. So usually, I always write when I can’t sleep in the middle of the night.


What do you think you'd be doing if you hadn't chosen this path?
I am not very old yet. Writing isn’t so much a career yet, just a hobby. I really want to be a writer when I am older though. I want to write novels, and poetry and everything in between. Maybe even scripts, I am not sure yet. But, I am not very good at anything else. So if writing doesn’t work out, I am sort of screwed heh heh.


What do you think it's your most meaningful deviation and what makes it special? Does it have a story behind it?
I used to have a whole bunch of poems in my gallery. I deleted all of them and took a few months off from Deviant Art. So, my most meaningful poem is not in my gallery anymore. I forgot what I called it exactly, but it was about Eating Disorders. I posted it in March, or April, I am pretty sure. I might repost it again, because I feel like it needs to be there. But, I was a bullied a lot when I used to go to public school. And at the beginning of 7th grade, everything just kept getting worse and worse at school. I was really depressed and insecure. So, for a while I struggled with an eating disorder. And it was really bad for several months. I am better now. I think that is the most meaningful thing I’ve written, because I know things can get really bad. And I think staying positive about your body is important. No matter what your size is. It is your body, and your appearance isn’t everything there is to you. There is so much more to you than that. I think, between society pressuring everyone and school bullies, and everything in between can make us forget that. I wrote that, because I wanted to possibly help someone who felt the same way as me. You just have to be healthy, that doesn’t mean starving yourself. Just exercise, but not too much, and eat the right things. That is all. And just love yourself, a lot. You’re beautiful, and if anyone says otherwise, screw them. They aren’t worth your time.



Do you have any insecurities regarding your art?
Sometimes, I’ll read other people’s stuff and I’ll be like, ‘Oh, crap. My writing is awful compared to theirs’ I have tons of insecurities. I don’t have a very nice rhyme when I write. I am trying to work on that. I am scared that maybe I won’t be good enough to do writing as an actual career. But oh well, I like writing. And I guess I’ll just be a really broke writer when I get older. And you know, I’ll be cool with that. Better than having a job that I hate.


Did art ever helped you to deal with your life problems?
Yes. Like I said, I was bullied a lot, and the whole eating disorder thing… and that is why I started to write again. Because I didn’t feel comfortable talking to people about it. And it was just sort of resting in the back of my head, and I couldn’t get rid of it. I hadn’t been writing for a while, and I decided to finally start again. And it helped a lot. So now whenever I am upset, I’ll always write. Also, I started posting to Deviant Art to help others somehow. Because, it is nice to know you’re not alone. And I try to make things that people can relate to and sort of find some sort of comfort in. Because I didn’t really have anyone there to help me when I was in a bad place. So, I try to be there for my Deviant Art friends.


What is the one thing you always wanted to do but never got a chance to?
Regarding art and things like that. I really, really wanted to be in a band for a while. But, I figured out fairly quickly I am pretty terrible at singing… and like…. Music in general. So, that ended really, really quickly. I do like music though, I just can’t make my own, haha. Also, I like to draw. But I am not very good at it. So, there is that. (Also I wanted to see MCR in concert, BUT NOOOOOO THEY BROKE UP!!!! But, I don’t think that is what you mean by that question)



A few words for our fellow artists?
I am not really one to give advice because I am still learning as well. But, read whatever you can get your hands on!!! I swear, if you want to be a writer, this is the best practice. Reading improves your writing a lot. Novels, Scripts, poetry, EVERYTHING. But, make sure you like writing. When writing stories, make sure to do story outlines. As, they’re very helpful for writer’s block and they keep you going. Because I always make the mistake of starting a story and never finishing it, because I get to the middle and have no clue what to do after that.
Also, if you’re writing. Write when everything hurts or when you’re so happy you feel like you could fly to the moon and back. Don’t censor your imagination, and just write what you’re feeling. It is a really good outlet. Usually the pieces of writing, come from when you feel awful. And like you want to rip your hair out. Just write, and write and take it out on the paper. Like they say, ‘What is bad for your heart, is good for your art!’ (Although, I hope you’re all happy. And that you don’t feel that way.)